What I Want?

I can't sleep,
I can't stay awake,
Everything I do,
Reminds me of her,
The television,
The movies,
The mall,
Everything,
I can barely function,
Lying to the faces,
Of family and friends,
So they never know,
What I'm going through,
This is my struggle,
I refuse help in it,
I just want her back,
She is perfect in every way,
It pains me to see,
The mediocrity in everything,
By comparison to her beauty,
I just want her back,
Because I love her,
And I knew from the moment,
That it all started,
That she was the one for me,
She tore down my lies,
Slapped some sense into me,
And gave me a reason to try,
She is perfect,
I love her,
But she isn't mine anymore,
And I just want her back.

Suck It!

Simply Sweet,
Underneath My Covers,
Clinging To The Sheets,
Killer Embrace All Around,

My Body Against Yours,
Your Body Warm With Passion,

Healing Of Another Nature,
Ecstatic Over The Nights Turn,
No End In Sight,
Rest No Longer Imminent,
Your Body Is Ours.

-Nate-

P.S. Resist Not Penis. You know what it means. =)

Sidebar to the Audience

I feel kind of awkward putting this on a blog but I'm going to anyways. Diana and I's four month anniversary is coming up like next week and I have no idea what to do. Should I get her something? Should I take her out somewhere? I mean, that is the same day she gets back from Lebanon so I dont know what to do. Knowing myself like I do, I will probably end up writing her a nice poem and getting her a card, though I have thought about getting her something simple yet meaningful. Just a matter of getting it is the problem. Just wondering if the audience has any suggestions on the matter. Not that I will listen to all of them, but I might. Just looking for a little help. To end, I'm going to write a poem just for her to read when she gets back.

Here I lay on my bed,
While you fly off to parts unknown,
Of all the places I've been,
I've never been where you've gone,

So here I lay on my bed,
Rolling over in between commercials,
To stare at the spot where you once lay,
The special spot where you graced my bed,

So here I lay on my bed,
Wrestling in the background,
Remembering that we would watch it and laugh,
Point at the funny men in their underwear,

So here I lay on my bed,
Eyes shut,
Imagining you are here,
Lying next to me,

So here I lay on my bed,
I can feel your body next to mine,
Your arms around my chest,
And you head upon my shoulder,

So here I lay on my bed,
Missing you so dearly,
As you are not around to be with,
Oh how I miss you darling,

So here I lay on my bed,
Surrounded by insolence and stupidity,
Waiting for your return,
From a place I've never been,

I hope you are better,
Not sick nor sad,
Just know that waiting here,
In my bed,

Is he who loves you,
Eternally.

-Nate-